| | Ya know, I'm so glad I wake up everyday to live this shitty life that I do with all these dumbass people in it. It's not fair that I am being given this crap. Today is Kevin's bday and where the fuck is he? Who the hell knows, but not with me. It's 2 weeks and 2 days today and I called him around 9pm tonight, no answer. I am trying again at 10pm and ya know what? That money that Carlos gave me is being spent very soon here if I don't see him by Friday. This is bullshit. I'm sick of him. Maybe he all of the sudden found someone else...good luck there, cause they're never gonna be hot like me. I am tempted just to do a drive over there and see. But why? I've slept basically all day today. I've been so freaking depressed for months now and if Kevin and I are done, then seriously, why should I live? I have no real long term goals and I am just so miserable.
My dad and I are talking again. I don't know why I'm lowering myself to talk to someone who was also never there for me. He's acting like he cares and crap and I know that deep down, all he wants is my money that I will never have. I honestly just hate myself. It's so stupid and I'm tired of waking up to a life that I never wanted. It should've never turned out this way.
Find someone else...yeah, that's real easy. Maybe for you. Everyone I like lives in BFE and they'd probably be like the rest of the others anyways.Or they'd turn out like my family that I never really had either just it was always easier for them to give me up than love me. Yeah thanks to everyone who has never given a shit. You are all such winners.
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| | Posted 11/4/2009 9:57 PM - 1 View - 0 eProps - 0 comments
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